Katie Bear Turns 5

Today my baby girl is five years old. Half a decade. Three months away from Kindergarten. Days away from losing her first tooth. Excuse me while I echo all the mothers in the world when I say "they grow up way too fast!" And excuse me because I'm sure that's not the last time you will hear me say that.

The day she was born is still clear to me as if it was yesterday. Mothers' Day 2005. I remember how I felt, what I was thinking and worrying about, and about every minute of the 14 hour delivery. I remember how Dave was such a rockstar husband. I remember how special it was to have my mom there. Three generations of girls, together for the first time. I remember how everything felt so new and scary, and yet somehow I knew just what to do. Like it was meant to be. I remember the nurses leaving for a bit and telling me & Dave to "practice pushing." I remember that scared me to death.

But most of all I remember those first few seconds of her life like they were stretched in slow motion. I remember seeing and hearing her for the first time. It was the single most life changing moment of my life. I never knew I could love the way I loved her then. I couldn't imagine then, loving her even more, like I do now. Motherhood is a miracle and I thank the Lord everyday for the three little miracles in my life.

Katie amazes me everyday. Often I wonder how I got so lucky to be her mom. She is so smart, full of so much personality, so social, and wants to know why & how everything works. She is quick to help, quick to say sorry, quick to say "I love you," and quick to jump into my arms or lap for the best snuggles I could wish for.

Being our firstborn, Katie has changed my life in more than one way. Because of her, I am a mom. Looking at her is sometimes like looking at a miniature mirror that reflects all of the ways I want to be better - for her sake. I want to be exactly what she needs. Being her mother has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. She inspires me everyday to be a little better; to give a little more; to forget myself and get to work in and for our family. She challenges me in the very best of ways and I am thankful everyday to be her mother. She truly makes me a better me. She is my joy. My Katie Joy!

Happy Birthday sweet Katie Bear!

{picture taken by Staci Hopkin}